Susan Dennis (susandennis) wrote,
Susan Dennis

I give up

So Frank texted me that H-Mart was finally open downtown. This store has been 'opening soon' since the Bush administration (either one). I wanted to see it. So I put on my new walking shoes (which feel so great, by the way) and walked over to the free downtown shuttle.

This walk is 2 blocks. The shuttle would drop me off at the aquarium which is another 4/5 blocks from H-Mart. It's not hot out. The sun is not out. It's not too cold. In other words, Perfect weather. Perfect footwear. I waited for the shuttle for 10 minutes and thought about walking the rest of the way to the store, walking around the store and then, somehow, getting myself home ... shuttle, bus, walking and I just decided I wasn't that interested.

So I came home. And, by the time I got here, I knew I had made the right decision. I am old and out of shape and it's just not worth the effort to me.

There is some kind of turning point here I think and while I know I'm supposed to be bummed or embarrassed or ashamed or something about it, I'm really not. If there is something I really really really really want to do, I'll figure out how to do it. Otherwise, I'm fine with not doing what I don't want to do.

It's the life I've always wanted and I'm delighted to be enjoying it the way I want to enjoy it.
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