Susan Dennis (susandennis) wrote,
Susan Dennis


I've had in my mind that on Thursday (today), either before or after my 11 am swim, I'd go to the grocery store. This thought has always been preceded by the  things on my mental grocery list. And now, I cannot remember anything critical on that list.

But I do have a book to return to the library which is very near the pool.

In other words... big day planned here.

I keep debating about my 'big' Canadian trip. Debate is too strong a word. But, I think, do I really want to go? That's a lot of trouble to go to for what...  And then I think why the hell not? It's paid for. It's not like I'm doing anything else. I can't even swim here and I can there. And what trouble? I sit on a bus with electricity and wifi for four hours and watch the view. I worry a little about my stamina but why worry. if I can't do much, no biggie. I think I just have serious retirement inertia - since I have nothing I have to do, I do nothing. I'm not sure I'm unhappy about it. Clearly not unhappy enough to make any changes.

These are all things I think about while I swim and then, by the end of the swim, I come to the conclusion that I should go even if I decide I don't want to, just to see how it feels. If I don't like it. I don't have to ever do it again. A small price to pay for good intel.

I kind of understand the wunderlust of others. There was a time in my life when I'd go anywhere for any reason at the drop of the hat. But, the fun of that is sure lost on me now!

Time to quit navel gazing, get up, get dressed and get on with the No Big Deal Day!!
  • Post a new comment


    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded 

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.