Shit happens and really no harm was done. I just reacted very badly. Tomorrow will be better if only because 1. I won't be at all surprised if the power does not come back when promised and 2. I have a game plan for if it doesn't.
I won't be happier but maybe I won't embarrass myself.
I will say that spending a day without the webcams on turned out to be pretty interesting to me. I was acutely aware that they weren't there. I made a mess at one point - lunch plate, tissues everywhere, the airbed sloppily in the middle of the room with pillows on the floor. At one point I thought 'I should clean this shit up.' and the I thought 'No hurry, no one can see!' And I didn't get dressed until it got too cold.
I think the webcams keep me honest, tidy and more engaged beyond me than I realized. I kind of like that and knowing it.