Susan Dennis (susandennis) wrote,
Susan Dennis

Shallow and Deep

So, after yesterday, I now get swimming Masters sessions.  Alvin, the assistant pool manager and my bud from the days when he worked at my pool, was there and came over to chat so I pelted him with questions.  I get it now and know. Of  course, I could have gone to Wikipedia. It was all interesting but I like plain old laps.  So that's what I did once the Masters people were done.

Then I stopped at Albertson's on the way  home to get cat food.  We don't have many Albertson's around here and I'd forgotten how much I love them.  I love a store that offers up prepackaged combo of chopped onions and celery combined.  So I ended up getting more stuff than I intended.  But, I did remember cat food!

I got an email this morning that echos what the folks who follow my webcam on Opentopia and even more nicely says what others have said behind my back and to my face over the past few years... Even my brother has mentioned it... All are concerned, shocked, disgusted, appalled, etc that I spend so many hours, day after day, sitting on my orange chair.  I knit, I watch TV, I play on the computer/tablet, without moving for hours on end.

No wonder she's fat.  She's killing herself.  That kind of lazy isn't healthy at all.

Yep. Yep and yep.  I get it. I understand it.  It's all true. Healthy people don't sit for hours and hours without moving.  I don't know the science but popular theory says this is all true.  And I am well aware.

It's a choice.  It's a choice I make knowing the ramifications of that choice.  I chose to do what I want to do.  I have built my life to make that possible.  I have no children. I have no partner/husband.  I have no one who is dependent on me for anything.  I am free to do what I want and I appreciate that freedom with fervor.

And I have no desire at all to live a long life.  I will be 65 years old next month.  I have already lived a long life.  If I die today, I will have had more of a better life than most people I know.  No reason to be greedy.

It takes 3 inhalers and several pills every day to keep me breathing and, even then, it's with 50% of the lung power that most women my age and size.  That's already getting perilously close to my personal line. I admire and appreciate those heroic people who overcome massive handicaps and/or work through ugly cancers or other ailments.  I admire and appreciate them but I am not them nor do I want to be.

I want to sit on my orange chair and watch TV and play on the computer and knit.  So I will.

And speaking of computers.... My new one is at the shippers. I keep checking the tracking number but so far it hasn't hit the Fed Ex tracking system.  I'm hoping it gets here this week but I'm resigned that it may take longer.

Today is laundry.  I may or may not go for a swim at noon. If I do, I'll need to leave here about 11:15-11:30.  My current plan is to see how I feel about it as it gets closer to 11:15.
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