I don't have a job. I don't spend time with friends. I don't have that many friends to spend time with. I don't go out just to go out. I honestly think the outdoors is more of a requirement to get from one place to another, not somewhere to go because it's there. I rarely even text. My COPD does limit my ability to do some things BUT I think it's really more of an excuse not to do those things I don't want to.
My brother talked to me while we were in Las Vegas that he was concerned about his being so one-dimensional. He wants more. He wants a hobby or a something that will take him away - mentally and otherwise - from his regular life and mix him up with more/different people.
I think I have even fewer dimensions than he does but my difference is that I am really fine with my nothing. I deeply appreciate the nest I've made here and the freedom I have to wallow in it 24/7 if I like.
When I listen to pundits prescribe the happy, fulfilled life, they seem to pretty much take what I value, make a bullet list and say Don't Do These Things.
And yet, for me, I can't see why not. I'm happy. I'm optimistic. I am not beholden to anyone. I have no husband or children. I have a sister who's not in my life by my choice and I have my brother but that's it for family. I appreciate having my brother in my life and while he may judge and/or scratch his head at my choices, he respects my choices. He explains me to people by saying 'she's unique'.
In thinking about my life choices, I realize that I started creating this current life years and years ago. I think it's something I've always wanted and I am very grateful to have it now. It's certainly not for everyone. Most people don't even 'get it' but it works just perfectly for me.
I am trying to be patient with Seattle Seahawks fans. But, I am beginning to hope that they lose on Sunday and this whole thing is over. My twitter feed is littered with 12th man crap. The local news is similarly but even more painfully infected with pathetic need to lather up the crowd already crowded onto the bandwagon. I'm done. I'm over it.