Susan Dennis (susandennis) wrote,
Susan Dennis

I am rude

I used to have a woman who worked for me who was always very pleasant and nice to be around.  One day she said something in a conversation that just whipped me across the face.  She said 'I never want anyone to know how I feel about them.'  What she meant was that if she disliked anyone for any reason she prided herself on never letting them know that.

I had never really thought about that. On the surface it felt very disingenuous but it sure made her nice to be around.

I, on the other hand, am very nearly the opposite.  I made some effort sometimes to keep a civil tongue but I usually fail.  If you are an asshole, it is likely you will surmise that fact from my attitude around you.  Spade calling and all that.

I'm certainly not proud of this trait but, I honestly don't do much to hide or mask it.  Just now, in the garage, I ran into two of my neighbors (Ann and Lee)  and we were discussing the people who park behind me and live down the hall.  They annoy the shit out of me.

When I came into the garage today, they were parked at an angle using my space and the one next to it, while they leisurely unloaded their car.  (They've done this plenty of times before.)  It really pissed me off and I displayed this feeling overtly.  I did not say a word, but, apparently, according to Ann and Lee, no one missed the message.  While we were chatting, I said something about regretting being rude to someone else and they howled... 'you??? rude????'  clearly meaning that since I am normally rude, why in the world would I care about it now.

It bugs me a little to know that my personality is so offensive but, not that much.  Once I finish this entry, I'll pretty much forget about it and go right back to my old, rude, self.  At my age, and in my circumstances, I'm not around that many people so it's not like I'm going to offend too many so I'm pretty sure I don't care.

I did find out last week that our condo resident manager is going to be leaving before the end of the year.  Ann and Lee told me that the guy who has been the board president for a bunch of years is quitting.  Big changes.  Condo people generally don't deal well with changes.  Things could get wild around here.


The new pool is amazing.  It's really beautiful.  I really wish they had longer hours. Their lap swims on Sundays are only an hour.  Today I didn't even get in my full 2,000 yards.  Ok, so I only missed it by 2 lengths but it felt more rushed than I like.  But that's really the only complaint.  It was just a joy to swim in.

Next Sunday they have lap swimming from 9-10. I think I'm going to give that a try.


The Mariners are apparently going to end the season appropriately.  They are down 6-0 in the 5th.

And the wind is still gusting.
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