Susan Dennis (susandennis) wrote,
Susan Dennis

Breathing ... it's a good thing

Most days I am fine which is actually amazing.  When I was first diagnosed with COPD, I had spent a month wheezing and gasping for air. I honestly thought that was going to be the way it was for the rest of my life.  I remember so clearly my sweet doctor saying 'don't worry.  we'll get this under control.  we'll find you an inhaler you can do once a day and you'll be back to normal.'

At the time, I thought he was just blowing smoke up my skirt but now, 3 years later, I'm delighted to discover he was very right.  I have 3 inhalers - 1 twice a day, 1 once a day and 1 when needed.  They are lexus expensive but damn if they don't do the trick.

Most days I feel fine.  Great.  I can do what I want.  I can't run a mile or half mile or to the end of the block but, then, I have no desire to run anywhere.

And I can swim.  I can swim laps hard and fast, I can do vertical water exercise - cardio and strength - as hard as I want for nearly as long as I want.  If I run out of breath in the pool, recovery is swift.

But, once in awhile I have a day that is just not a breather.  Today is one of those days.  I did a bunch of laps and was fine but during class, I was coughing fairly frequently.  Out of the pool, I quit coughing but clearly, it's not a good breath day.  I stopped and had breakfast and did a couple of errands but totally ran out of steam.  I was in the middle of a store and nearly didn't have enough energy to get back to the car.

Once in the car, where I could sit it was better.  Which was good because traffic was a bitch. I got a mile from my house and I couldn't get here.  But the A/C was on, I had a podcast to listen to, I didn't have to pee and there was no ice cream in the trunk so WTF, I just sat in the car and crawled along with everybody else.

Now home, and safe and pretty cool and way better. I have nothing that I have to do.  Nowhere I have to go.  TV to watch, a baseball game tonight, bears to knit.  I can do all of that with totally minimum breath so no biggie.

And, I know tomorrow will be better.
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