Susan Dennis (susandennis) wrote,
Susan Dennis

Nuthin here

Today I have only penciled in items on the agenda... there's a burger place I'm thinking about trying for lunch.  I'm really low on cat food. I need to tend to my drawing class homework.  I could do laundry. I still have two hours of Downton Abbey from last Sunday to watch.  And, I think I can go ahead and send my tax stuff into the CPA any time now.

But, nothing *has* to be done which is kind of luxurious.  

I left my job at the end of last July.  So I've been a Lady of Leisure for more than 6 months now.  I'm still feeling my way around. My 'retirement' was kicked off by being laid off.  I wonder if those who plan on retiring and then pick a day and just do it have a different mental experience than those who have their retirement chosen for them.  And, actually, I wonder if there are not far more people like me - people who's retirement is precipitated by a layoff or some other kind of job change rather than just 'I think I'll retire next week.'  I think it matters only in how you few the days after, otherwise it's likely all the same.

This week, I got a minor taste of what life used to be like working on that newsletter.  I spend two days working on it and putting other stuff aside to focus on just that.  There was not a lot of pressure but my brother wanted to get it to the printer and I wanted to get it right.  

It was nowhere near the feeling I got when I was working but there was a hint.  Kind of like smelling coffee roasting instead of drinking it.  It was an odd feeling actually.

I still think in terms of what am I going to do with the rest of my life while actually doing it - just going from day to day - knitting bears, tinkering with technology, keeping the house presentable, and filling in the gaps with tv, movies and books.  It's actually working out rather nicely when I think about it. I have no giant urge to do anything more or different - more like a twinge now and again.

I do think I am going to sign up for the follow on drawing class.  I'm enjoying it and learning a lot but not itching to use what I'm learning so much.  I don't know whether it's because I don't have enough confidence yet or really just don't give a shit.  I think I need another 4 weeks to find out.  And with the pool closed for the month, my Saturday's need the action!

Betty is wanting more breakfast and I'm not even dressed yet.  I think getting out of bed and getting dressed would be a good way to get started on whatever I'm going to do today.
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